tentang aku (di medan)

 

hi, i come back. Instead of editing the article, i prefer to contemplation here, halah

to untangle the piled up thoughts, keep moving, tidy up. I used to tidy up every single night before go to sleep. And I just finished it. So I want to spell out what I get so far.

Tomorrow, the 7th august I will have been in Medan for 1 year. Yes, I admit I was crazy to make the decision to choose Medan as my next life destination after Semarang.

Evidently, I’m not confident enough in competing with something that is already considered great by public. But, I have a strategy, and I belief with that, and I dare to go this far like going to Medan. 2255 km gaisssss wohooooo

Evidently, I can be surprised easily. Meet new people. And I’m so naive; think that everyone is nice people. Yeah everyone is kind, but the level is different. You can meet opportunist one, you can see people who has symbiosis mindset, and even the close one can be very annoying at the same time, eheeeeeee

Is there anyone who is truly sincere?

Evidently, my ego increasingly visible, I am still in old days. I cannot be the person they want me to be. In some point I try to reduce my ego, but I am still impatient. Some of my dreams were almost sacrificed. I still hold on to my principles, my values.

Evidently, I try to shift from mindset that I used to be. Yeah, little step not changing everything at once. I have to be patient and belief the result will much better, unexpected. Belief that Allah gives me not only what I need, but what I want too, aamiin ya Allah

See? Ego.

Because I was naïve, I was shocked to face the plot twists, I even did something wrong. Ya namanya juga baru pertama jadi manusia di bumi J

Dah malem, dah ngantuk. Pake bahasa Indonesia aja lah biar cepet awokwkwowk.

Sangat konsisten dalam ketidakonsistenan J

Sebagai anak rantau yang tidak disuplei oleh ortu, kecuali akomodasi pertama kali ke medan, gile gue mandiri bener woy! Gaji bulanan selama cpns deficit terus mampus lah tabungan gue bukannya naik malan turun turun ke dasar laut. Gpp, duit bisa dicari lagi. Sekarang dah 100% gajian, yuk tetap bijak supaya bisa financial freedom, ceilah

Belum bisa beradaptasi dengan makanan di medan, makanan sumatera. Dan benar kata penelitian bahwa makanan sangat berpengaruh terhadap tubuh dan emosi. Gilaaaaaaaaa tak masuk logika, gak mau punya watak kaya orang sini, gak ya bear gak boleh kebawa arus J

Yeah of course, I admit that I am not WANITA LEMAH LEMBUT. Tapi karakter adalah hal lain..

Getting bored, definitely. There is no destination that has beautiful view. Medan so noisy, lot of people, dan tata kotanya gak jelas L gak tau lah males ke mana-mana, tapi pengin jalan-jalan.

Soal rohani, Alhamdulillah menemukan orang yang lurus-lurus, itu bikin semangat dan ngtriger buat selalu berbuat sesuai tuntunan Islam, istiqomah ya bismillah

Ya intinya emang pandai-pandai lah dalam berteman, pengaruhnya luar biasa.. aku kira aku orang yang udah paling atoz, ternyata bisa juga kebawa arus.. klo meleng dikit kumpul sama yang aing aing ya begitulah, ya mungkin tadi, naïve

I remember what Z said, untuk apa ya kita dipertemukan?

Ku jawab ya, sebagai perantara rahmat dari Allah untuk semua, dan sekaligus sebagai instrumen ujian kehidupan orang lain hahahahahahaha dunia ini dunia

Dah lah besok sambung lagi, see ya

sambil dengerin tentang aku

dear jingga, saat gundah yang bertentangan ya baiknya berdzikir! solat istikharah sanah!